Little Girl

I once wished I could be all grown up To have privileges and go out after dark but now that I have them I wish I was a little girl again It was so easy then Nothing to worry about  If I got scared I could crawl into my dads lap And when I was sick  My mommy would stay home with me Instead of going to work I didn't have to think about... Who liked me and if I liked them back There wasn't all this pressure Everything was so much easier Now I worry about who likes me, and if I look okay. I wish I was that age where nothing mattered, I didn't have homework, I could just play outside  Or stay inside and play with my dolls When I could play in the mud And not look like a fool But I can't anymore Because my feelings are changing along with everything else I get home from school.. and do hours of homework I have to worry about... Whether the guy i like, likes me too when all I really want to do  is crawl into my moms bed  late at night when I can't sleep Just like when I was little. I'd watch tv until I feel asleep Then she'd carry me to bed Where if I got a scratch She'd pull out a box of band-aids and make it all better Then i would crawl into my dads lap, he would read to me but I don't need that anymore Because I'm growing up, going to dances, wondering who I'll dance with, if anyone I wonder what will come of tomorrow all I want is to have those times back in my memory I was so happy. but now half the time I don't know what I am What will happen to me when I'm older? Will this feeling just get worse? Will i grow out of it? I have so many questions and feelings  If I don't get them out I think I'll just explode I have so much to think about But little time to do anything I just want to be little again and not have a care in the world I wish.... I could go back in time, to those fun days but i cant! So I have to deal with... growing up with these emotions and problems hoping i wont always feel this way. Can someone help me? Even though I have no problem? But the face that I miss being little. But I am no longer a little girl So i have to deal with these.. questions, problems, and feelings. Like the big girl that I am.